Spinning Wheels

I reserve the right to change my mind and then change it back again. The Creative Weekly is now the Millipede Design blog. Though I had the best of intentions to create something every week and blog about the process, it occurred to me by week three that I had put far too much pressure on myself. Millipede Design was busy right out of the gate so the thought of adding more to my already full plate soon became unbearable. What I needed to do in my downtime was to putter and work on the little projects in my home. I needed to unwind rather than wind up. Letting go of the Creative Weekly allowed all that guilt of not following through (something I rarely do) to dissipate. The Millipede Design blog is about following up and with the same spirit in mind, there shouldn't be any pressure on me, the creator.

I will continue to post about art, design and anything else that strikes my fancy. I'm on a quest for balance and am finding this more difficult than I thought. At times, I feel as though I'm spinning my wheels and getting nowhere fast. Eventually, as logic prevails, I ease off the gas and this, in turn, propels me forward slowly,  getting me to where I want to go. Do you think there's a lesson in this?  I sure do.

Self-employment is hard. Even though it still looks rosy to me, the transition from 9-5 to home is a difficult one. My personal difficulty lie with guilt. I feel as though I have to be billing hours every second of the day even when this is not possible. I have a creative business and need to allow myself time to create, to be inspired and to absorb. So how can it be on a sunny afternoon that I should be able to settle in with design magazines or take photographs or paint without the guilt? I've worked hard for this and deserve it so. My business depends on it.

No doubt transition will be a reoccurring theme as I write my way through these coming months. After all, I'm on a learning curve that's likely to go right then left then right again.